Struggles: Y'all, I don't know what to DO! Autism and Sleep Regressions are the WORST.

I will keep this brief because no one wants to hear yet another blogger ramble on about their mental problems. 

I am really struggling lately. I am not getting enough sleep. My adrenals are still fried. I feel like I have been fighting a panic attack for over a week now and I may break into tears any minute and I don't fully know why. 

I am just not happy and I don't know why. Yes the autism thing is weighing heavily on my mind but really, that is not the end of the world and we can handle it. We don't even know if that's what's for sure is going on.

My mom still has not been able to move down here since the house isn't sold and no one has even looked at it. She hasn't heard back about a job  My dad needs her here but they can't afford two mortgages on one income again. Again, though, no biggie. They are getting it worked out.

Although the fall activities have picked up again, I enjoy them and am glad I have more reasons to get out of the house  

Froot Loop's party is this weekend and practically no one is coming. The important ones like most of the grandparents (minus my mom) and my sister in law and nephew will be there. None of his friends (not that he is super close to anyone but I wanted some other kids to be there) are able to come. Other family can't come or are blowing us off. There's soccer games and my two friends who just had babies need to be with them and I totally understand. I go all out for my boys for their birthdays. I spend way too much time and money on them but it is important to me so I do it. I want their birthdays to be crazy fun and I love having a reason to have people over for a party. But if no one is coming, what is the point? 

I need to sleep. My anxiety and depression get so much worse when I am sleep deprived. Hopefully Cocoa Puff gets through this sleep regression very soon.

Sorry for rambling. I do not want this blog to turn into a rant. Thank you for listening. 

So, how are you? What is currently bugging you?